I wrote this just over a year ago as a writing assignment. My true loneliness of my isolation is raw.
I hope you enjoy reading and looking in my window for a little bit.
mini2z … journey with me
I’ve spent a lot of time looking out windows in the past few years but more so this year. I think of the isolation I feel looking out into the world. I think of the fear of going out because on the outside I look fine but inside I hurt, I’m beyond tired and yet I try to put a smile on my face. I think of the loneliness that I feel even though I have four amazing family members living in the house with me and two pupalups that are always close by. I feel trapped inside and robbed of living a true life and will be stuck behind the window.
Yet, I open the blinds and let the light in every morning. If It’s a day I’m stuck in bed I have a fake window to look at and it’s pretty cool to picture myself in a hammock in the shade listening to the waves roll up on the beach.
This window makes me think of yesterday’s uncertainty and how I try to enjoy the simple things like a cup of tea, my kidlets coming and talking to me, a pupalup dropping a toy in my lap and the light that comes in from the window I’m looking out.
I’m grateful for those little things and even more so on a day when I find myself in bed exhausted after a nights sleep, in pain in every joint of my body, a headache and nausea that just never leaves me, I’m grateful for the sun that is coming in the window I’m looking out.
Day 4 writing assignment in writing 101
Journey with me … mini2z