I had major insomnia last night. Â I followed the orders of the occupational therapist and came to the couch to watch some tv and not be in my bed. Â I think I got three hours sleep in total. Â This is not a good formula for me. Â I was doing well watching TV in my room, sleeping 6-8 hours even with the “stimulation”. Â Now I’m more stressed about sleeping. Â My OC says that I can ignore Saturday and Sunday because most people work Monday to Friday. Â I tried to explain that I work, two 12 hour day shifts in which I’m a complete bitch in between the two days, 24 hours off and then two night shifts with four days off after. Â Most therapy seems to be catered to the normal people who work Monday to Friday with a nine to five shift. Â I’ve never known that. Â I’m in my 25th year of policing and the “generalized” crap isn’t gonna cut it for me.
Hubby knew something was up because I haven’t slept on the couch in over a year. Â Last year, it was my safe place and it took me a long time to love my bedroom again. Â I love my couch and it’s a comfy place but at 7am when he was coming home he expected to find me in bed, out cold with a pupalup or two illegally in our bed. Â I slept until 9am. I think from 6am. Â I also had a nap around 3pm – 5pm and I haven’t been napping unless I’m in a lupus flare.
My daughter finished high school today. Â No more exams, just the pomp and circumstance later in the week. Â I’m so proud of her, I don’t think we tell her enough. Â She’s the baby of four and can be the grumpiest but at the same time the most loving. Â I’m so happy that today and tomorrow won’t be spent trying to find a “suitable” dress to wear under her cap and gown. Â She found a dress on the weekend. Â She’s requested a “family dinner” out after her fake diploma is handed to her. Â Sushi is the torture that I will be subjected to. Â I’m told I can get non-fish sushi, we shall see;.
I have linked this blog with my page on Facebook, mini2z – Journey with me…
This is all new to me but I hope you’re following along in my recovery, acceptance, journey of awareness of the limitations that my illnesses have thrust upon me.
If you’re looking for a laugh, go check out the pupalups page on Instagram – keelyandranger – they got a new #pawcet today. Â The best $35 I’ve spent. Â Ranger will really only drink from fresh running water from the tub. Â He’s a boxer not a labrador, therefore not a water dog.This is my crazy pupalup Ranger learning to drink from the Pawcet. Â The Pawcet is from QuirkyÂ $35 (thought it was $24 but still cheaper than ebay)
I’m hoping tomorrow will be a better day, sleep is needed and happy is needed too.
Journey with me…mini2z