I have to keep saying this to myself but some days I want to give up, give in, anything to feel normal again. Constant pain, constant nausea, fatigue, not sleeping, headaches, sadness and so much more day after day really wears on you.
When you store up, rest up to be able to face the next day and then end up feeling worse you wonder why me? I’m a fighter but some days I have nothing left to fight with.
Every year I go to a hockey game with my son. That was yesterday. Today I’m so feeling, the too long of a walk, too many stairs, the cold, anxiety of such a large place in public and over stimulation. The noise and flash overhead (we think it was a photographer for the game) had me wanting to leave after the warm ups. I had to go to the bathroom but didn’t want to go alone and my son can’t go in a ladies room with me twenty years old so I waited until we were leaving and again more stairs. I see my family doctor tomorrow so I’m going to ask for x-rays of my hips because they’re in so much pain today that just resting they’re throbbing.
I do have to say that both my kidlets have had colds the past week or so and I haven’t gotten that. (touching wood) I will be getting cortisone shots next week in both hips at an increased dose so I know that will provide some relief after a couple days but the shots don’t seem to last very long.
So I’m going to Always Keep Fighting.
Journey with me … mini2z